Thank you to those who wished me a Happy Birthday! I didn't expect it! Like... at all! It was awesome!
Sorry if my personal talks are boring but I'm still saying it! XP It's my journal
~*Warning: Despite my normal happy personality, the following journal is less than happy. Sorry in advanced.*~
After spending the whole day yesterday in my house, puppy sitting my sister's puppy, I will celebrate my next year of living with my bf and perhaps some family later today (aka Friday because it's 2am lol). My mom made my all time favorite cake as she usually does but it tasted even BETTER than last year! mmmm home made Cherry Cheesecake. <3 May I just say this though, this birthday felt like a sneaky surprise on it's own. Since I work all kinds of different hours of the day, time and dates blur together. It's very hard to tell what day is when. I was home pretty much alone on my birthday. I felt very sad, unloved, and alone... But I saw people wishing me a happy birthday all over the internet, texts, I even got 1 phone call! It was a little more comforting. Its rough because it's the dead center of the week and everyone in my family works, including myself. But usually, as a family tradition, we go out to eat at a place chosen by the person whose birthday it is. We didn't. T^T The closest I had was my mom coming home from work with the cheesecake in her hand, 1 candle lit, saying "What are you doing alone in the dark on your birthday?" I know it was light spirited... and her intentions were comical but the realization hurt.
My youngest sister and I both graduated this year, and we had a joint Grad Party on Monday. I know it was close together with my birthday but being a busy, working household, we have to make due with the time that we have. Could have made it even more compact and done my birthday party and graduation party. COULD have... but we didn't. Now, reverting back to what I previously mentioned, it snuck up on me and I did no planning. I didn't have a birthday wishlist, a guest list, nothing! I even forgot that it was happening until the day before! I wrote the date right on my calendars (yes, multiple) and everything but I STILL thought it was mid September... It is my own fault that this happened. A while ago I invited some of my friends to come but only one remembered, my bf, and he didn't remember exactly what it was either.
So, due to my own lack of time/focus/planning it resulted in me feeling really alone on my birthday. I don't even work that much!! But it just takes so much out of me! >< And don't get me started on the sporadic, chaotic hours. lol
I am still working on artwork. Don't you worry. It's gonna be some of my long lost OCs (not lost just haven't posted anything of them. It's all sketches and blah lol)
If you've made it reading everything til here. Thank you. You are a true friend. <3 I would totally do a sketch for you <3